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Everyone in fandom has a fan name. It is the name that most people in fandom use for a particular person’s body of fannish work, be it art, fiction, vids, archives, opinion, twitter feed, or LJ. It can be anything: it may be derived from a favorite fandom, the title of a book, or the closest object when creating a new account. Whatever it is, that fan name is important; it is how we know and identify each other in fandom. The fan name is casually used, and has the individual’s history behind it. Even when someone chooses to use a new fan name, somewhere along the way a translation is made, so that the old history gets associated with the new name.

Occasionally, a fan will choose to use their legal name as their fan name. Conventional wisdom says not to do it, but the use of legal names as fan names is something that goes in and out of fannish fashion. In the early 90s, there was a big push to use legal names as there is nothing inherently nasty or wrong about participating in fandom, but as the community moved on line, the concerns about negative exposure meant that more people chose to use fan names disassociated with their legal (or ‘real life’) names.

So while it does feel weird and awkward, if a fan has chosen to use their real life name as a fan name, it is not an outing situation when another fan uses it as well. The individual using their RL name as a fan name may choose to rethink that choice and migrate to a new fan name, but that’s no different than any fan who decides that their old fan name no longer cuts it. It’s tough, but eventually--usually-- the change is accepted. People with wank-filled histories may find it harder to change their fan names, or a translation matrix may always follow behind them.
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This christmas, I got two awesome presents, awesome in completely different ways. From my husband, I got an iPhone, and I have spent a lot of time bonding with it. I love that I can read on it--I have set up shortcuts to both my LJ and DW pages--and I installed the kindle for the iPhone app, and am working my way through the adventures of sherlock holmes (which was free, and thus it doubled its awesomeness.) I've got a few games, and the heyway and shazam apps, plus the facebook and pandora apps. I also use it as an ipod a lot, and even have the Adam Lambert album on rotation. Fandom is joy, and music is joy, so if you know of any good fan mixes, point me to them please.

The iPhone is win, I swear.

In a completely different manner, my son also wins for presents this year. When I opened the gift from him, I got a calendar and a bar of organic dark chocolate and a book; turning it over, the book turned out to be Twilight. I laughed, he laughed; we high fived. His well-developed sense of irony is a total score.

The double irony comes in that I decided that since I had it, I might as well read it, and so I take it with me to radiation every day. Since I can only manage about 10 minutes at a time of being in Bella's head, this is working out. If they're backed up and it takes longer to get to me, I read Holmes or email, or play games on my iPhone. Seriously, radiation sucks, but I'm loving my waiting room time.

Interestingly, having the Twilight book with me is giving me a whole new perspective on being out about fandom. Okay, my son hates to be seen with me, but it's his own fault for giving me the book. *g*. The thing that makes him the most uncomfortable though is that female fans of the series openly approach me to talk about the series and how much they love it--and after gushing to me, they will 'see' him too, and try to talk to him. That's what's making him hide under the desk more than anything; he's not used to being seen like that.

So, anyway, these women come up to me and talk about their experiences, how much they love the books, about their favorite scenes, and talk about things that I'll really love later in the series. They are open and enthusiastic, and just by having the book in my hand, I have created an instant bond with these strangers, a community of two or three in the waiting room of a hospital or at a restaurant or, well, anywhere. I still have my fannish community by iPhone, but the in-person warmth and openness is exciting. I guess I just love talking with fans that are in love with their fandom, no matter what that fandom might be. The fact that they are in love is totally cool.
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Like many other people, I've had a story archived without my permission on [livejournal.com profile] tehopheliac's site: http://www.amortentia.net/

ETA: The site has been taken down now, so it's being dealt with.

my emo reaction )
wickedwords: (fanlove/fansnark  by tzikeh)
This came up at Escapade, so here's a link to the potlatch essay I wrote in 1999. It's been nearly ten years since I wrote it, so it needs updating, but I think the concepts still hold.

The Fannish Potlatch
wickedwords: (fanlove/fansnark  by tzikeh)
Here is my main problem with established relationship stories: most of them don't have enough relationship stress. It is as if the author fears any tension between the characters, and so they make it clear right on page one that the couple is together and will be together forever and ever amen. Mean and nasty external forces might come to bear on the favored couple, but it never shakes their faith in each other and their commitment to one another. They may sigh and fret and bemoan their lover's fate, but ultimately, they know their commitment will win out. Frequently, these stories are labeled as angst, but to me, there is little angst in them; I already know how it's going to turn out. Nothing moves or changes emotionally for any of the characters involved. They can--and do--frequently go through hell, but that refining fire does not change or reveal anything about the characters at all; they end up in exactly the same place as where they started, in their close, committed relationship, both of them unchanged.

It's a story I want to read only when I have major PMS or when other traumatic life events swirl around me. While I get that we all need comfort fiction occasionally, does there have to be so much of it?

Seriously, why read the story when nothing really happens to the character, where there are no repercussions and no impacts? Why invest my time and emotional energy when the characters can survive being burned, frozen, separated from their families and friends for years, prostitution, drug addiction, ritual torture, etc. and come out without any emotional scars? When the characters and their relationships are made of Teflon? I 've read a lot of these stories lately, many of them highly recommended, and I just--well, I guess--I get annoyed. Really annoyed. I get downright peeved in fact.

The lack of consequences in an established relationship story frequently leaves me vexed.
wickedwords: (fanlove/fansnark  by tzikeh)
Lately, I've been thinking about origin stories, the stories that people tell about how their world came into being, and about the way fans talk about their origins. To my way of thought, most people start in fandom within a single community founded on a very focused interest, whether that interest be a TV show, a book, a movie, or a whole genre of stuff. This silo-style community has existed forever, wherever people have gathered together and bonded over their love of something, building friendships out of their passions for minutia and detail over something that the rest of the world just doesn't understand. So Sherlock Holmes fandom was a silo in the 1800s, as was 'Little Nell' fandom. There was probably a Hercules silo back in ancient times, when all the Herc fans would hang together and talk about their favorite stories, and who told the best rendition of the 12 labors.

In fact, I bet of these silos were incubators, what I call threshold fandoms, that brought a lot of new people into that one fannish community. They learned what fandom was within the confines of their silo, their community of origin. Back in the day when we had gatekeepers to fandom, the gatekeeper would teach you how to interact with other fans, and define appropriate behavior. The gatekeeper created a mask, a template, for what was expected in being a member of the community, and that, in turn, became the expectation about what would happen in any fannish community.

Media fandom began as one of these silos. In begat, begat, begat terms, Science Fiction fandom begat Star Trek Fandom which, in turn, begat Media Fandom. Before the late 1970s, there was no such thing as a media fan; everyone was a fan of their specific fandom, whether that was Star Trek, The Man from Uncle, Led Zeppelin, James Bond, or The Lord of the Rings. The origin fandom was all: father, mother, sister, brother. It defined who we were, and who we interacted with, the geeks, the wonks, and the nerds. We were all soul mates (if you include bitter enemies in the definition of soul mates), and we'd always be together.

In 1975, though, the world changed. Because 1975 brought Starsky and Hutch to the table, and from that point on, things could never be the same.

I can't really describe the acrimony that existed as old Star Trek and K/S fans fell under the spell of Starsky and Hutch. It was so bad, the first Starsky and Hutch zine planned to publish completely anonymously, no names attached, because of fear of reprisal. Women who were made of strong stuff vowed that they could and would put their fan names on their fiction, no matter what friendships it cost. It was a bloody civil war.

By 1977, a sort of accommodation was made, with fans agreeing that both silos could exists, and turning cold shoulders on the defectors to the other camp. But 1977 brought "The Professionals" and "Star Wars", and suddenly, there were a heck of a lot of silos around. Fans needed a way to talk about people interested in more than one community, and so they came up with a term: Media Fan. People looking around at all the sources of fandom, and realizing that "hey, wait a minute, I did this same sort of writing thing back when I was a Led Zepplin fan", and out came the drawer fic that people hadn't admitted to having, back before the great schism. It became the umbrella term for everything, no matter what the source, as long as the community and the social network remained the same.

And in 1978, that media fandom community begat the first Media West con, albeit under a different name.

So to my way of thinking, this is the point at which Media Fandom really begins. There are silos and communities before it, of course, as we didn't fall out of the ether completely formed, but the creation of the term Media Fandom was a symbol of accommodation, embracing the diversity of those who were Media fans.

This story is not completely true, and it relies on history and experiences that aren't universal, and have been talked about and retold so many times that it's hard to see the truth. But I like the ideas in it, that we created the term media fandom out of a desire to preserve friendships and find a middle ground, where we could all exist.

YMMV, of course, as we all have our own origin story. But I think this one is mine.
wickedwords: (john rodney chess heart)
I am so excited that SGA is starting back up again tonight. I want to see if things kinda turn out like I expected. Looking back on the last few years with a McShep eye, here's what I saw as themes:

Season One: John and Rodney discover Atlantis and each other. They have a lot of fun getting to know each other, and it slides into sex around the time of the Defiant One. Then the Wraith show up, and those two weeks before the Siege are some of the most intense emotional and sexual experiences either of them has ever had. But when the Daedelus shows up to rescue them (yay!), reality crashes down on them both. OH NOES! What have they been doing?

Season two: Was all about finding their feet with each other, after that intense emotional rush from the seige and the shakeup of coming in contact with earth again. So things were shaky at times, and their emotional connections stretched as they learn what their boundaries are now that they are back in the 'real world.'

Season three: It's about family. After all that dancing around and relearning each other, John and Rodney have come to understand how solid they are with each other, and what their teasing really means. They are each trying to make a life for themselves in Atlantis, and Rodney is still looking for the white picket fence that John gave up on with his divorce. John's vision of the future is pretty scaled back, and what he has now is the best thing that he could hope to have. They sleep together occasionally, but Rodney is still looking around for his perfect life.

And that's where they are at as we go into season 4.
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I had the wonderful opportunity to remix one of the stories by [livejournal.com profile] thepouncer

Title: See the Possible (Taste the Rainbow remix) (at remix community)
Summary: Friendship in Five Senses
Rating: PG
Characters: John, Rodney
Fandom: SGA

A/N: Many thanks to [livejournal.com profile] elynross for her beta; all the remaining errors are my own. Written for the 2007 [livejournal.com profile] remix_redux challenge. Original story: See the Possible by [livejournal.com profile] thepouncer

See the Possible (Taste the Rainbow) )

fuzzy-headed rambling )
wickedwords: (vid tv by sherrold)
[livejournal.com profile] killabeez said something like:

You know what would be cool? The vid version of the 5 stories meme. So, with that thought, here are 5 favorite vids that I have done. I'm not going to say that these are the best or always my favorites, but for the moment, these are the ones

1. Lives in the Balance, Wiseguy, Character Study for Roger Lococo,on our vid site
I've always loved Roger, and I assume most people know the backstory on this vid. It was the first one I ever picked the song for and had the vision for. [livejournal.com profile] sherrold did all of the button-pushing as it was first made during the 2-VCR era, while I was on bed rest with pregnancy-induced blood pressure problems. It was a great way to keep me entertained.

The version on our vid site was re-cut from the DVDs last year. I'm hoping to post it up on Imeem later today.

2. Hair, Multimedia, bouncy fun con vid, not available on-line
Unfortunately, this vid will probably never be available on-line as it has just too much source to track down. We scoured fandom for a year pulling all of the source together, asking people to bring tapes with them when they came up to Seattle to stay. My favorite two clips in it are the slow hair flip with Armond, and the slow one with Castillo pushing his dripping wet hair out of his face as he stands in the water. I love the way those two moments are so slow in contrast to the rest of the vid that it just re-frames the whole thing. They are perfect hair-fan moments.

3. He's the Man, The Sentinel, Character Study for Jim, not available on-line
I was at [livejournal.com profile] sherrold's office to take her to lunch one day, and she said, "you have to listen to this." Then she played the comedy bit, and when it was over, I blinked and said "you know, that would make a great vid." We dragged Jo into it, and did shuttle vidding; I don't think the three of us were ever in the same room at the same time while we worked on this vid. I loved how we were able to show Jim's two sides, the action-hero and the girly-man. I have such a fondness for that particular combination.

Have I mentioned how much I love contrasts? I'd say Bodie, Jim, and John Sheppard are all in the "psychokiller or pretty, pretty princess" vein.

4. Voodoo, Invisible Man, Character study/relationship study about obsession, grainy imeem streaming version or on our vid site Originally, Sandy and I had a completely different vid plotted out, but we laid the first clip down--an eye image--then looked at each other and went "okay, cool. We are going someplace else." I loved the way the obsession between the two men and the way that quicksilver connects them

5. Stress, Stargate Atlantis, Character study for Rodney McKay, grainy imeem streaming version or on our vid site
I originally wanted to use this song for Buffy, but it never really fit. I guess that's because it was waiting around for Rodney to arrive, as the song is the perfect fit for him.

Honorable Mentions:

Hippie Boy, The Sentinel, character study for Blair, not available on-line.
This one is really Jo's brainchild, as she had the song, but I got to work on it and learned so much in the doing. Jo has a great eye for camera details. We had to work for it as Blair's visual angst generally ranged from somewhat bemused to pretty darn bummed.

Wipeout, SG-1/Farscape Parallels,on our vid site
Ha! We did this before Cameron and Valla showed up on SG-1, and knowing that I did that fills me with unholy glee. Essentially, I made a vid that pulled the Farscape characters into the SG-1 universe, and then TPTB did that FOR REALS. Is that not awesome or what?

Same Thing in Reserve, The Sentinel, constructed reality, not available on-line.
We had a lot of fun building the universe where Blair and Jim were outed, plus we got to use Katherine's really cool fader to do the transitions! This was a pre-digital vid, made with 2 VCRs and we needed a whole 'nother machine to do the crossfades that just take a widget in premier anymore. (Hey you kids, out of my begonias!)

Okay, writing this up was a lot of fun. Thanks for tagging me, Killa!

ETA: Forgotten vids? I forgot all of the ones we did that were HL! DOH!
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A while back, [livejournal.com profile] queenzulu asked for some meta on "Fandoms I Have Known." It became more of a history of me and my participation in Fandom, rather than talking a lot about the fandoms themselves. So, for [livejournal.com profile] 14valentines, I finished putting the finishing touches on it while [livejournal.com profile] elynross read through it so I wouldn't subject y'all to my random capitalization and spelling.

My Life as a Fan )

The 14 Valentines Issue of the Day: Women and Voting
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This final segment contains spoilers for SG-1, so I'm doing it all under a cut tag.

Friday and Set Tour
Saturday Panels

Sunday )
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I know that there are some tiny SGA spoilers in this one, so I'm putting in a cut tag. It's a wrap up of the panels on Saturday.

Saturday Panels )
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This is my con report, which is mine, and it may possibly contain spoilers at some point, so I'm putting in a cut tag. Here's Friday and the set visit, and I hope to make it through the rest later.

Friday and Set Tour )
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I have never been as prolific a writer as I was this year. When I look at my goals from last year -- 6 completed stories, 1 of them over 6000 words -- I had no idea I was being so easy on myself. That felt like a pretty good year. I made a resolution to join a challenge, finish off a WIP, and work on joining into fandom a bit more, instead of sitting by the sidelines.

Then SGA ate my brain. At the time I was working on this meme last year, I though maybe I'd glom onto House fandom, but, uh, yeah. The end result is that I wrote 50+ stories, chapters, and drabbles, including last year's yuletide but excluding this year's yuletide and sga_santa. That is a lot for me. Seriously. When did I become prolific?

Story Details )
Vid Details )
Now the meme )
resolutions )
wickedwords: (vid tv by sherrold)
So, for several years now I've been using this metaphor to describe viding in the late eighties and nineties, that of the 'greater' and 'lesser' houses of viding, and toward the end of the timeperiod, the houses being 'beseiged' by either 'barbarians at the gate' or 'feral vidders'. Obviously, I have read far too much political-based Fantasy and SF in my life, but the metaphor felt like it fit to me.

Well, this year I got to do a whole presentation on my theory and how it all worked; unfortunately, it was scheduled against "Scooby Road." I got really good attendance, but man, I didn't get to see Lum's masterpiece, and so was incredibly bummed about that. But as there is never a good time to for anything to be scheduled.

Because I am lazy, all you get is the notes from the panel, but I hope you can see where we were going. There really wasn't time for enough discussion, and I only made it up to the creation of the west coast asthetic via vidding interaction at Escapade, so some year, there will need to be a part two.

Please note: All the asthetics have their strengths. I am coming out of the west coast asthetic, so my preferences are based on that, but everyone has their own preferences. I also need to mention that there's a difference between specifics and generalizations: while each person chooses for themselves what they will do, once you generalize, the individual choices get washed out. Each person within an asthetic chooses to follow some, all, or none of the values that they have been exposed to, yet the trend among all the vidders in that asthetic still holds.

genealogy notes )

One final note: even though I set the timeframe for this as the late 80s through the 90s, the asthetics and vidding guidelines they imply are still going strong. In this year's VVC premiere's show, I'd say 'Joker' was a great example of the mediawest asthetic, showcasing accessiblity to a crowd; Morgan Dawn's Dr. Who vid was an excellent example of the use of color in a vid, something prized by the San Fransicso asthetic; and Crush Story (our 'The Tick' vid) was out-and-out pure West Coast asthetic.
wickedwords: (vid tv by sherrold)
I always freeze up when my vids are discussed at vividcon. Every Sunday of the con after the premiere vids are shown, there is a discussion of what worked and what didn't for the people who saw the show -- which would be everyone at the con. *g* It's considered polite for the vidder to remain silent and listen to the reaction, rather than explain their vids and what their intent was; it's considered really bad form for the vidder to argue about how wrong someone's comment was. Other viewers can argue, but it's not the vidder's role to explain things, and they pretty much just have to suck it up.

Which means that I pretty much go tharn with big anime eyes while I am there, and come home with an immediate desire to explain myself. And I just realized that now I can.

Hallelujah )


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